Walking on eggshells with a megaphone

Imagine for me if you will

A poets turn to kill

He bleeds lies as heavy as a lawyer under the knife

Though he makes it sound beautiful, makes it sound right

Now the imagery has become to real

Thick enough to make the selfish feel

And the politicians bleed textbooks with all the footnotes in red

Because its the thoughts under the lectures that speak to the dead

Me

I'm not going to bleed when my soul is collected

The words flow inside, and are resurrected

Remember me fondly, I'm already scaring of dying

I promise I lived, I promise I was trying

Speak your mind when you can scream it

You could live your life but you just dream it

I won't leave you beind like this

With memories of duct tape and silence

I have to tell you

I have to tell you

The unspoken things that leave us deaf

The music in our synchronized breaths

I'm rising and coming back with a vengeance

Oh yeah, I'm coming for you now

Love is listening to last words, they say

We don't have that long, so lets live this way

Will you be the brushfire started with a sigh

So I can be the forest burning in July

It's not that I'm desperate, it's not critical

but you know that taste in your mouth, something lyrical

It will drive you madness, turn you green and open your eyes

And you need your fix to get you by

Speak your mind when you can scream it

You could live your life but you just dream it

I won't leave you behind like this

With memories of duct tape and silence

I have to tell you

I have to tell you

The unspoken things that leave us deaf

The music in our synchronized breaths

I'm rising and coming back with a vengeance

Oh yeah, I'm coming for you now

If I was a camera.

My flash would only work half the time.

And I would take a lot of pictures of the birds. Because when I am a camera...I will never stop wishing I was a frikkin bird.

Why does EVERYONE want to be a bird?

"Well they fly. They're free."

No.

They catch the bird flu.

Or are shot by .22 s

or they run into Windexed windows

Or get a bow and arrow through an empty spot in their brain

And

they die.

They fly.

But they don't walk very well.

I'm sure they get sick of the sky...just like we're sick of the ground.

No.

I still want to be a bird.

Gravity sucks.

yayforredbull.

I drove a car today.

It was hard.

I think I may have problems.

Is it supposed to be that hard?

Isn't it like a big golf cart?

Gar. Guess not.

Big moving tons of steel.

Glassy-eyed devils behind happy wheels.

Statistics like pinpricks against the freedom.

Responsibility.

Responsibility.

Responsibility.

I know how to change the oil! And the tire!

Exciting.

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Hello dahlings!

So I haven't updated in a while. And the funny thing is I like Xanga better...it's more blog-ish journal like.

And I refuse to become a MySpace whore...

Today I fly back home from Hawaii (tear tear)

But HOPEFULLY I can see all your sunshiney faces very very soon. Hawaii was amazing. What is so sad though...it's gotten so commercial. Maybe that's just the island of Oahu...but I think my favorite part was going to see the Arizona...it was so humbling. And you can still see oil rising from the fuel tanks fifty years later...it's basically a tomb. And it's only about fifty feet off of land...can you imagine watching that from fifty feet away?

Sends shivers down my spine.

OH GOODNESS we also went swimming in a SHARK CAGE...with real freakin SHARKS...no joke! OMG it was the COOLEST thing EVAH! They were these HUGE twelve foot Galapagos sharks...it was amazing...they were actually kind of cute, in an I'll-rip-your-face-off kind of way...

I LURVE you all!

I think I will try to change the background soon.

SO today is Band Camp...I am actually pretty excited. That means I will have been in Beaufort for a whole year...which is crazy. The fastest effing year I have ever seen . Everything has COMPLETELY changed...I can't ven explain it to yall. I didn't just change location...my whole outlook on life....my goals and morals, my friends, religion, my look on relationships, working, music, acting, living my life in general has completely changed for me since I moved here. Maybe it's the fact that I moved...maybe it's highschool and growing up. It's probably a bit of both. For one thing Havelock doesn't even have a Drama department...which is scary. I would have never been Peter Pan. I would have never been so close to Xoe. I would have never met Sherm Kelly or Green....all of this is scary. I don't know how much I could have grown in Havelock....I can't explain it. I had nothing to feed on...if that makes sense. I lived there for six years....the longest I've lived anywhere...you aren't meant to live in Havelock in six years...it's not exactly a homey place. I think it sucked me dry, but I don't think I realized it until I moved here.

So yeah. Goodbye ninth grade. We barely saw you pass.